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20140730-170321.jpgDay 10 – How To Slow Down

Thought for the day: Since I am a human BEING, today I focus less on doing and more on simply being

Daily Quote:
Women can wait, and they can wait infinitely, their patience is infinite. It has to be so, because a child has to be carried for nine months. And look at a mother, a woman who is just about to be a mother: she becomes more beautiful, she attains a different type of grace, an aura surrounds her. Now she is blooming, soon she will flower.” ~Osho

Today’s message from Osho is about slowing down.

Excerpt from the course:
Life is not going anywhere; there is no goal to it, no destination. Life is non-purposive, it simply is. Unless this understanding penetrates your heart, you cannot slow down. Slowing down is not a question of any “how”; it is not a question of technique, method… Change your basic philosophy: that of an achiever. Relax into your being.”

Before I started meditating, I did not understand how to “slow down.” I am Aquarian. We think, act, walk, and sometimes “know” in lightning speeds. There is no such thing as “slow down” in our dictionary. It’s a totally foreign concept.

The herniated disc was my lesson in “slowing down,” and my few weeks of medical leave last year, became my body, mind, and spirit overhaul. It forced me to look at my life–what the past was trying to teach me, how my present was unfolding, and how I wanted to approach my future for my best and highest good.

Before the herniated disc, I worked like a dog. My life was crazier. Our society conditioned us to go, go, go… But where were we going? A stressful and quick way to deterioration…

Have you been feeling or even felt your own “slow down?” And I mean, your personal “wake up” call–where you are made to really look at your life and see if that’s what you want your life to be? I think that is the beginning of a “slow down” which would eventually lead you to a more peaceful way to be.

(Disclaimer: All images and meditations are from Osho’s 21-day meditation series by Mentors Channel.)

Related Links:
Osho: A Course In Meditation, 21 Day Workout For Your Consciousness (visit to register, it’s free).

Mentors Channel

Older posts regarding my meditation journey:
Day 1: Strength Through Devotion
Day 2: Meditations on Love and Relationship
Day 3: Meditations On Anger
Day 4: The Art of Living in Balance
Day 5: Love and Meditation go Hand in Hand
Day 6: Living Dangerously
Day 7: Watching The Mind
Day 8: It Needs Intelligence To Be Happy
Day 9: The Integration Of Body, Mind and Soul

20140727-231503.jpgDay 7 – Watching The Mind

Thought for the day: I am willing to be a witness to my mind, without judgment

Daily Quote:
This is the only distinction between the dream and the real: reality allows you to doubt, and the dream does not allow you to doubt….

To me, the capacity to doubt is one of the greatest blessings to humanity.” ~Osho

Today’s message from Osho is about how to be a witness to your mind.

Many Spiritual Teachers and Mentors advice that it is important to be the master of your thoughts. It’s not an easy thing to do! Even when you know that you attract what you think…

However, I have found that meditation and a focus to turn my thoughts around do help, when my mind is on a roll. Also, I try not to beat myself up these days. All is well, and I can always change my thoughts as soon as I catch myself.

Osho advises to not worry too much about your thoughts. It’s natural. Instead stop what you are doing and focus on quieting the mind. You will find gaps and openings in which you can distance yourself from thoughts. Then focus on the present. The sudden change will give you a chance to regroup… from here you can quiet the mind.

Or… You can change the thoughts to better, peaceful, or loving ones. 😊

The course is followed by techniques to help with watching the mind.

From the course:
Mind exists with your cooperation or your conflict…When you fight with the mind, you are giving energy to it…So whether you cooperate or you conflict, in both the cases the mind becomes stronger and stronger. Just watch. Just be a witness. And, by and by, you will see gaps arising.”

(Disclaimer: All images and meditations are from Osho’s 21-day meditation series by Mentors Channel.)

Related Links:
Osho: A Course In Meditation, 21 Day Workout For Your Consciousness (visit to register, it’s free).

Mentors Channel

Older posts regarding my meditation journey:
Day 1: Strength Through Devotion
Day 2: Meditations on Love and Relationship
Day 3: Meditations On Anger
Day 4: The Art of Living in Balance
Day 5: Love and Meditation go Hand in Hand
Day 6: Living Dangerously

20140506-100429.jpgToday is day three of Oprah and Deepak Chopra’s Finding Your Flow Meditation Experience.

Today’s meditation is about finding the power within–to align with your true power.

While meditating, I recalled a memory from when I was a small child. My paternal grandmother would often take me with her to visit churches, spiritual healers, etc.

We would often visit a particular healer’s house, but while they were talking in the house, I would have to stay in the courtyard, to sit and keep my frilly dress from getting dirty.

The healer’s 14 year old nephew would often tease and taunt me (I was 5 or 6), even when I would just be playing by myself. One day, I had enough, curled my fist, and decked him. I can still remember the surprised look on his face and the blood oozing from his lip, but he stopped bugging me after that.

I am not relating this to encourage violence, but I remember keeping what I did a secret on the way back. There was a sense of shame for what I did (yet a feeling of empowerment at the same time), plus I didn’t want my grandmother to see that the knuckle on my right hand was severely skinned–like coming off. I kept my hand hidden the whole way home.

In life, we often come across really hard experiences, and sometimes we tolerate our situation until we have had enough.

This happened when I was in an abusive relationship when I was younger. The brave little girl inside of me had to encourage the broken woman I had become to get her power back and leave the negative situation. I had to build myself up to find and strengthen myself so I would never ever again be in the same situation, and to finally know my worth. My worth came from finding the power within and from my long and continuing hard work on self love.

Today’s centering thought is “my power and strength are within.”

Today’s Sanskrit mantra is Ram, which means “I am strength.”

Visit The Chopra Center to sign up for the free 21-day meditation experience.

(Image courtesy of The Chopra Center.)

20140415-213009.jpgI am unsure yet if I will be doing a daily post about my 45 day journey as I surrender and let go with the flow. I am logging my experiences in a mini journal (as pictured above which I tweaked for privacy), and I am thinking of maybe doing summaries every few days or so.  I feel like I might end up spending way too much time in front of the computer and phone that I won’t have time to live my life.

Day 2 started very early for me. Mini Panther seems to have become much more loving the older he gets (he is twelve years old, but was a family cat for the first nine years with my mom). I woke up at least twice very early in the morning as he snuggled further towards me, nearly pushing me off the bed.  I have a queen sized bed with plenty of room.  This is my first cat pet experience so do cats become more loving/social as they get older?

I was picking up my co-worker and friend, PDJ, to carpool to work this morning. I told him I would get him at 6:35 a.m.  He said that if I made it on time, he would buy me lunch.  Darn, but I was late by 2 minutes.

In the end, he still wanted to buy me lunch (when we carpool, we treat each other once in a while for driving), but he had forgotten his wallet. HaHa. More about that later.

He told me during the drive that one of our friends showed my new FB profile picture to a newly single guy, who wants to meet me, but he got a lot of flack because he met me half a year ago.  PDJ and the guys wants to set me up.

PDJ and I had volunteer work today at Loaves and Fishes.  We prepped the dining hall, prepped some of the cold dishes (hot dish came from another site), prepped the donated bread and other items for the community to take from, served the meals, and helped with clean up of the kitchen.  During the service, I was in charge of the beverage table (one napkin per client as I was told and I needed to remind them to bring their cups for refills.  I have a soft speaking voice (not so my power singing voice), so I sometimes had to let them know about the refill twice.  Perhaps I should have sang the reminder.  Today, we served 164 meals.

We just don’t know… just don’t know what these clients are going through in their lives.  I felt sad to look into some of the clients’ eyes which were so deadened, they walk as if walking dead, but there were others whose eyes still had light sparking back. They still have hope.

Like the funny man who tried to speak to me in one of my racial languages.  He was so cute, coming back towards me with a different word each time.  There was a little girl from a family of four, tentative and shy to ask for napkins or drinks, whose eyes still shined with innocence.  There was even a boisterous lady who went from table to table to inspire camaraderie and hope.

I was glad to have a chance to do this event.  I’ve decided to plan an event for my group in the future.  I believe that serving others is a way for us to put our feet into someone else’s shoes, and an opportunity to gain more empathy for others.  Just as we are, they are doing their best…

After the volunteer event, PDJ and I decided to grab lunch. PDJ had forgotten his wallet, and I only had a $20 on me (I thought I was getting a free lunch. LOL).  So we ended up at a Vietnamese/Hawaiian/Filipino/Mexican fusion eatery through the help of Yelp.  We lucked out as we ordered as we found out that our mini tacos (Sweet & salty pulled pork (YUM), Tempura Tilapia (YUM), and Spicy chicken (OK)) were buy 2, get 1 free on Tuesdays. When I heard that (with our eyes hungrier than our stomachs), I also ordered a side order of the spam fried rice and garlic noodles to try. This was a newly opened place so PDJ was able to give them some honest feedback to help them with the side dishes.

20140415-223427.jpg When we left work today, PDJ and I had an opportunity to do a random act of kindness.  Hopefully, this somehow helped.

I once wrote about a path to a park I wanted to explore but didn’t get a chance to.  On the way home, PDJ showed me the entrance to the park (it is in his neighborhood), so now I know.  I stopped by the cemetery (also near his neighborhood), on the way home, to visit my grandparent’s grave.  For some reason, I feel sorry for flower pots that have turned over on people’s plots, and end up righting them back up.  My mom once asked me why I always did that, but I don’t really know why.

Mom picked me up for our Acupuncture sessions in the afternoon.  My Acupuncturist looked at my back and said that my volunteer job took its toll on me.  I was on my feet for four hours.  She is so good.  She used to be a doctor in China, and followed the training of learning not only Western medicine but also Chinese medicine philosophy.  I shared a meditation with her, which I used while a pin cushion.  Today’s sessions were very restful.

The rest of the day was uneventful. Mom and I had a light dinner and we bought some groceries at an Asian market. I picked up some stuff for an upcoming dinner and also to play (with new recipes to share with you).  And that was my going with the flow day, today.  (OMG, this took me a long time to write, I better go as tomorrow will be a very long day.  Good night!)

20140415-081545.jpgToday is day two of Oprah and Deepak Chopra’s Finding Your Flow Meditation Experience.

Today’s meditation is about finding happiness within, so that you can find joy in each day and be able to deflect some of the blows and jabs in life. If the blows and jabs do connect, you will have the grace you need to lessen the impact it has on you or help you heal faster from it.

I know, from experience, that when I choose to be happy and go about my day with this mindset, I flow through life much more with ease.

I have learned that the only one who can make me feel happy is myself, and the only one who can take that feeling of happiness away is also myself. The choice is always mine.

Today’s centering thought is “I am the source of unlimited happiness.”

Today’s Sanskrit mantra is Yam, which means “I am happiness.”
Visit The Chopra Center to sign up for the free 21-day meditation experience.

(Image courtesy of The Chopra Center.)

20140414-190411.jpgToday started out well. My car had a new battery and I had a much better appreciation for it, knowing I am free again to go wherever I wished, at any time, without needing anyone’s help. The drive to work was subdued and I just flowed with the traffic, listening to songs from my iPhone, because I didn’t notice yesterday that I needed to put in the code for my radio system, after my car battery was changed.

When I arrived to work and opened my e-mail, despite seeing that my performance review was available for me to read, I didn’t have any qualms about what it may contain. I was on two medical leaves for about 11 weeks total last year. I wasn’t expecting it to be like the performance rating I received the year before.

I didn’t have any anxiousness of what the review may contain, but after having read it, there was a part of the performance review that bothered me… something to do with me pushing through my health issue and physical pain during the healing process after returning to work.

“Her dedication is extremely admirable and was recognized by her fellow Project Team Members and her peers. Mercedita literally gave up her “body and soul” for this project.

I did not feel that this was a good thing. It reminds me of when I used to work like a dog without care of my body, which led me to getting sick in the first place. Yet I think it was just the wording that bothered me really, and I let it go.

Luckily, today was the first day of Oprah and Deepak Chopra’s Finding Your Flow meditation experience (see next post), and it was about “finding security”, so that no matter what happens, you can go within to a place where you can feel safe, even if there are rain storms outside.  It seems so fitting today. 😉

You would think that getting your performance review may be enough fun to experience in one day, but I received a call from my Uncle, who was preparing my taxes, to let me know that I will be paying again this year.

Again, I was going to go with the flow today. I put my trust in and I already had a mindset that today will be okay. With a refund from the State, I would only have to pay less than $200 for my Federal taxes. Whew!

The only sad thing was that I forgot my lunch at home, but it gave me an opportunity to go outside and enjoy the sun and get some vitamin D (which my Acupuncturist said I needed anyway). So it turned out well. I picked up a caesar salad, and halfway through I realized that I should be mindful of eating, rather than checking e-mail, so I decided to practice mindfulness and truly be in the moment of tasting and chewing my food.

I enjoyed the tanginess of the dressing, made spicy by the speckles of black pepper. The salty parmesan cheese shreds were soft against the contrasting crunchiness of the sweet romaine lettuce and hard garlicky croutons. I even delighted in the way the dressing infiltrated the porous insides of the croutons.  It was a tasty lunch.

Something else happened today.  I came back from picking up lunch and I was barraged by a lot of texts, about rain boots… Here is a glimpse of what it’s like to hear from me via text (my response is the blue one).

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Here is a picture of the rain boots that made everyone curious.
But here is something that friend, R, sent after the rain boots picture that was the best picture of all.
I got home fine.  My forgotten lunch became my dinner, and reruns on the Travel Channel are playing to keep me company as I type my posts.  Overall… I think my first day of surrendering and letting go went well, I think.  I need to work on quieting my mind more (there is still too much chatter) and to be more mindful and present in the moment.


There are a lot for me to be grateful for today, especially for heat and electricity–these things I shouldn’t take for granted. I must always be aware and thankful that I am in a country where these are easily accessible, but I learned something else important to me.

Yesterday, I wrote about David Steindl-Rast’s TEDTalk on gratefulness. To be happy, we must be grateful and enjoy each given moment. To be open to the opportunity of a given moment, we must slow down and be in the present now.

One of my fears is the future, as it relates to men, love, and relationships. Before I would get too close with a man, I would self-sabotage or end it for many reasons relating to what I had experienced in the past. I had written this fear down and faced this fear the other day, and the best thing I could come up with to deal with it is to fully release the future.

I’ve tried doing that before and now I feel that I have been terribly half-hearted about those other times. When it comes to love when other people are involved, there’s no way of controlling the future. I can’t. I can only control myself.

Plus the only constant is change. What we do today can affect our future, so even if I was told I would meet someone who could change my life in a particular place on a particular day, but decide not to show up (maybe out of fear), for instance, then I lost that chance.

That is why it’s best to just live in the present–in the now, and just enjoy it fully. Let the future take care of itself, and instead, just enjoy the present (the gift) that is the “now.” I get it… now!

So today, I am grateful for “now.” I would like to end this post by sharing these lyrics from Katy Perry’s song, “This Moment.”

Do you ever think that
We’re just chasing our tails?
Like life is one big fast treadmill
And we pop what is prescribed
If it gets us first prize but you know
Who I
Who I think will win
Are the ones that let love in
Are the ones that take the time

All we have is this moment
Tomorrow’s unspoken
Yesterday is history
So why don’t you be here with me?

All we have is this moment
To put our love into motion
Yesterday is history
So why don’t you be here with me?
Be here with me now

Be here with me now
‘Cause the future is right now, right in front of you
Don’t let the clock, the clock tell you what to do
A future is right now, I’m in front of you
Baby don’t blink and miss

This moment


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