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On Sunday, I wrote about the numbing sensation I was feeling on my foot and up the side of my leg.  I remember that I wasn’t feeling particularly worried about it, but a part of me wanted to worry about how I was going to train for an upcoming race.

The part of me that wanted to worry is the part I am trying to let go off.  It is the part that wants to overthink about my situation–to find answers and solutions, until the situation has been laid bare and naked, and shivering from the cold inspection.

I would joke around and say that I get paid (at work) to overthink, but I know what kind of havoc it creates in my personal life.

I decided to distract myself by reading blog posts about gratitude, and came upon the post, “Trust, And The Answers Will Come – Day 283 of The Pollyanna Plan“, and there it was, just what I needed…


So I decided, then and there, that I would not let the part of me that wanted to worry to have a chance to run around in my head–not on Sunday, not on Monday, and not even this morning, when I spoke to my manager about it.  Then the answer came to me, after I received a text from my personal trainer letting me know that he couldn’t meet with me today…

In a previous post, I wrote that I am still working on being patient, especially with healing. I tend to “forget” that my body has limitations right now, especially when I am not feeling any pain. It is usually only when something happens with my body, do I listen to it.

The numbness was my body letting me know, “Hey! You’re not back to normal yet.” Once I realized that, part of the numbness went away almost immediately.  While on the phone with my good friend, R, discussing what had happened, I realized that if all the numbness went away, I would just “forget” my current limitations yet again.

So today, I am deeply grateful to my body and for the important message it conveyed to me.  My tasks now are to listen to it more, and most of all, take better care of it.


The Pollyanna Plan

I grew up in a culture in which girls had to prove that they are just as capable as boys.  To be a daughter in a culture in which sons are golden, I had to prove my worth.  I had to ignore my limitations. I had to learn to be invincible.

So when I got sick and I was crippled with pain a few times, I really detested being in a position to ask for help.  I felt vulnerable.  Weak.  I felt like Wonder Woman all my life until October of 2012.

I have a really good friend, R, whom I have known for maybe 5 months, but I totally bonded with.  Interestingly enough and serendipitously, everything in R‘s path were cleared so that my friend can focus on healing, except R wouldn’t ask for help and remained very independent–while still continuing to help others.  R is back in the hospital and we are all worried, but because of R, I learned something valuable.

In part 1 of Oprah’s Lifeclass with Dr. Brené Brown, Dr. Brown said something really profound…

“When you cannot accept and ask for help without self-judgment, then when you offer other people help, you are always doing so with judgment.”

How many of you know people who are dreadfully sick?  How many of them are so nice and so giving that you can’t believe that they could have cancer, an incurable disease, or something else just as dreadful?

I heard, earlier this month, at the Hay House World Summit via a conversation with Dr. Lissa Rankin, that most people who are sick are those who are constantly giving of themselves and they often fail to take care of their own selves.  They keep on helping others, until they are derailed by sickness, and they become the ones that need help.

TimeStill today, I am always ready to help others, just like R, but I also realized that it is not only important to take care of myself, but that in order to help myself, sometimes I need to be gracious enough to ask for and accept help.

So, R, I know you will eventually read this because I practically shoved the link down your throat… ;D  We are here for you.  You don’t even have to ask, but please do!  Do it for self-love!  Do it for you!  We are ready to give you our most precious gift… our time.

Some links:

Dr. Brené Brown on Help and Judging (Huffington Post article)
Dr. Brené Brown on Help and Judging Video (Oprah’s Lifeclass)
Hay House World Summit (2014)
Dr. Lissa Rankin
Rick Warren

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