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“I think the person who takes a job in order to live – that is to say, for the money [not for purpose or passion]- has turned himself into a slave.” –Joseph Campbell

20141004-154017.jpgI am grateful that the muse is back. I’ve had to set it aside for years, but I have been feeling the want and need to follow my dreams, and I have answered the call. I am thankful for that.

(For 10/04/14)

“The big question is whether you are going to be able to say a hearty yes to your adventure.” –Joseph Campbell

20140911-174024.jpgOn Monday, I went in for an ultrasound of the mass found in my left breast.

The sonographer couldn’t tell me anything, but when I heard the doctor say, “let me calculate how much bigger it is,” I knew that things have changed. The mass had over doubled in size, in six months.

I decided that it would be best if I were to get a biopsy, but I wasn’t scheduled for one. However, it was as if the biopsy was meant to be, and everything worked out, and soon I was to be prepped for one.

The 15-minute wait in the dressing room was hard. The kind nurse asked if I wanted my sister to sit with me there, but I chose to be alone. But I was alone with my thoughts, and while I didn’t see my life pass before me, I did think about how I lived and what I have yet to accomplish in my life. Then the regrets. When the nurse came to check on me, the tears wouldn’t stop.

During the prep and the biopsy, my tears quietly fell. The doctor and the sonographer were kind and empathetic, and were very gentle with me.

Today, I received a call from the kind nurse who helped me on Monday, and I was grateful to hear that the biopsy of the mass was benign.

I believe this was another wake up call for me, and I believe it is time for me to begin to follow my personal legend.

20140522-204754.jpgI knew that when I first set foot on Alaskan soil (in Juneau) that I was in the right place, at the right time. I was meant to be there.  A few days later, we disembarked in Ketchikan and took a taxi cab excursion.  I will write more about my Alaskan adventures in future posts devoted to them, but during the cab ride back to the ship, I dozed off and had a dream.  My hand was extended out and a gift was placed in my hand.  It was wrapped though.  It wasn’t until a few days later did I understand what kind of gift was given to me. I was, however, very grateful for the wonderful gift I received.  A cool trust in the flow kind of gift.

Note: For 5/15/14. I had very limited phone coverage (network-wise and time-wise) and had wi-fi issues on the boat.

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Prompt: Thursday, January 2, 2014
What are you currently feeling pressure to do that you don’t particularly enjoy?

I feel an internal pressure to follow my dreams, but while I am a glass-over-half-full person, I am very real and practical.

I read a lot from books to do what you love and the money will follow. I advise kids and young members of my family to follow their dreams. Yet, with all my financial responsibilities, I just feel I can’t do that right now.

One day, I will get to the point when I can fully follow my dreams, but until then, I can feel the not so fun pressure of wanting to follow my dreams, while working in the corporate world, but facing the fact that it’s not a good time yet to do so.

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