I had written before that sometimes when I am having a problem and I need advice, I pick up a book and open it to a random page.
I was dealing with a challenging situation, and it was also challenging my self-love. So, I picked up Sonia Choquette’s The Answer Is Simple… Love Yourself, Live your Spirit! I thought about my issue, opened the book, and I couldn’t believe what I got!
From page 142:
“The best way to remain self-loving and aligned with Spirit when facing life’s challenges is to remember that they all are lessons–so stop feeling as though you’re a victim. This isn’t to suggest that the ones you face at times aren’t difficult or painful. It only means that until you acknowledge that your challenges exist to teach you something on a soul level, you can’t even begin to get past or rise above them. Whatever problem you encounter, know that it presents itself because there’s something in that situation that your soul wants to learn. The more quickly you acknowledge your problems as opportunities to acquire wisdom, the more manageable they become.”
I was upset and guilt-ridden, because in a moment of vulnerability, I did something that was not from a place of love or kindness. That night, I had restless sleep and my conscience just gnawed at me.
Basically, I texted in response to someone something that came out partly from resentment that had brewed for several months (and I did not yet have an opportunity to clear up) and partly from something else. In my weakness, lack of sleep, and some emotional stress, I said goodbye to an early friendship. I did not have a clear heart that time.
Nobody died. The world didn’t end, but I was pretty upset about what I had done and was worried about my friend. On top of that, I did it in text. I think texting should be banned sometimes… 😦
I realized that what I was going through was yet another lesson. I seem to have a lot of “opportunities to acquire wisdom” with this person. I apologized, but understandably, my friend is upset.
I struggle sometimes. I know that this is normal. I will have moments of weakness. I am not perfect. I will make mistakes. I will not be happy and positive every second, minute, hour, or day. What I do next, after a moment of weakness, is what is truly important and what will make a difference.
I am grateful for lessons from which I can learn. It is the only way I can grow to be a better person, woman, friend…