Archives for the month of: January, 2014

I am grateful for this couch.

A couch, you ask?

Why, yes. 😉

It is my mom’s living room couch. It is very comfy and puffy, and while my body apparently does not know how to nap, at least I was able to have a lie down, for a bit. Sometimes even a bit of rest can be rejuvenating!

I am grateful that my Uncle’s surgery was successful and he is doing well. It is always a comfort to see how many family members arrive to show support. We have been taking over the waiting room lately. I am sure my Uncle knows how much he is loved and supported by all his visitors.

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(For 1/25/14)

We started the day by visiting my grandparent’s grave, because my Uncle and his wife, who recently came from the home country and who could not come for my grandparent’s funerals, have not yet been able to visit… (and from what I’ve been hearing, lights were going off and on, and all sorts of other interesting things were happening at my Mom’s house). 😉

It was interesting how my Uncle was able to find my grandparent’s grave so easily. His legs literally stopped right in front of it, and he looked down and there it was. My Aunt thinks it was freaky.

On the way to Grand-Aunt Jeannie‘s funeral, I heard “Safe And Sound” by Capital Cities. I was glad to hear it. It’s one of two songs that really make things better for me. I knew it was going to be a good day.


The funeral was short and sweet in Colma, where the population of the dead outnumbers the population of the living.

I am grateful to be a part of your send off, Grand-Aunt Jeannie. May you rest in peace.


Prompt: Friday, January 24, 2014
Does pressure ever make you want to rebel and do the exact opposite of what is being asked of you?

Yes! I’m Aquarius! Just kidding, mostly…

I am working on this, but whenever something impinges on my freedom, my first inclination is to rebel (stand up for myself) or run away.

So when I am pressured to do something that I am not inclined to do, I think about what my lawyer dad told me as a kid which is to “choose your battles.” Sometimes you just need to do something you don’t like or want, even just to keep the peace. I do those as quickly as I can.

It’s been a tough 24 hours. We heard that a family friend’s dad has liver cancer, a few people need surgeries, one of Dad’s friends passed away, and Auntie J‘s husband had a heart attack and was hospitalized very early this morning.

I tried not to think too much about it to make me sad, but it’s a bit hard. I told one of my Aunts today that it’s been like “a dose of reality in mortality.”

At the mass for my Grand-Aunt Jeannie this evening, a thought popped into my head. In a way, I am grateful for it. I need to think about it… to understand what is most important to me…

“What/Who am I living for?


Prompt: Thursday, January 23, 2014
Do you think it’s possible to control your temper when facing enormous pressure?

Yes. It’s a matter of choice to not let it get in the way, or reuse that energy by changing my perspective and attitude to get work done quickly or get through the pressure.

It is always possible to change one’s internal attitude, even if one cannot control external factors.

I am very grateful to my Acupuncturist whose help is truly appreciated. It’s been about a month since I last saw her, and it was really over due.

It also turned out that my long walks were a part of the reason for some of my pain–and I thought I was doing something good. LOL! Oh well… Looks like it will be less scenery, more gym for awhile.

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Prompt: Wednesday, January 22, 2014
Do you have a bad temper? How often do you lose your temper?

I don’t really have a bad temper. I have a high tolerance, so I usually can take most things, and also from having a “live and let live” attitude. However, if I am dealing with someone who is messed up on a regular basis, once my threshold of tolerance is hit, I might start to steam inside and get angry, but more than likely, I’d just walk away.

I am grateful for the comfort I have been feeling from family coming together in prayer for another.


Prompt: Tuesday, January 21, 2014
Do you feel pressure to be perfect? How much of it is tied to what you see online?

When I was working to heal and make my body stronger, I realized that the only competition I truly had was with myself. I think that was when I realized I shouldn’t compare myself to others anymore. I am different, my body is different, my life is different, my life path is different… The only thing that mattered was to get better and to just live the best possible life that I could.

Yeah, sometimes, you can’t help but see things on TV or online and want, but I just remember how far I’ve come, what I’ve learned, and what’s important to me. In the end, I just want to be me.

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