Prompt: Wednesday, January 1, 2014
Do you work well under pressure?

I do, unfortunately, especially when I am only given a short time to complete something.  I take pressure as a challenge, and since it is a challenge, I like to be on top. 😉

The pressure gives me that big extra push to focus and just do it.  However, I am finding that as I age, I don’t respond to it as I used to.  Am I getting mellower?  Are all the meditations making me less pressured and more relaxed?  🙂

A few years ago, I tried to quit my job (I took on a lot of responsibilities and burned out severely), but my employers asked me to reconsider and take a personal leave instead while they restructured the organization I worked for, to deal with issues like what happened to me and others. It was very kind of them to do this for me and I was grateful that they kept my job for me as well.

I decided to move to another country for a few months to explore and to write. I ended up in Japan, with only a few years of Nihongo (Japanese language) study. Now, the workforce there deal with more pressure and stress than we do, and they work more days and hours there than in the U.S.

Since I wasn’t in the rat race, I really felt the difference of always “being on the go” vs. “working at my own pace.”  Maybe that was when things changed for me. I really burned myself out ensuring that my team always rose to the challenge, even if I had to do it myself, and I started to have stress related health issues.  That’s when I realized I was killing myself slowly.

Interestingly enough, it was in getting sick last October 2012 did I realize that I didn’t learn my lesson the first time.  I was still killing myself slowly with pressure and stress.  Oh, and it took a third time to learn it.  I am a little stubborn…

So after a huge Body, Mind, and Soul overhaul during my last medical leave, I decided to live my life differently.  That’s when I incorporated a lot of techniques including meditations into my life.

While I do really well working under pressure, I don’t like working under pressure for long periods of time.  It’s not worth it at all.