Archives for the month of: January, 2014

I inadvertently got a half day off. I took time off to help the family, but I was feeling run down. The powers that be at the hospital had asked that visits are limited and keep anyone who may be sick or getting sick from coming by, so I found myself with time on my hands.

So… I am quite grateful for this extra time to do some R’s–resting, running around (errands), reading, and relaxing.

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Prompt: Friday, January 31, 2014
Did you feel a lot of pressure with January’s NaBloPoMo ?

Not at all. This was probably the easiest thing! It was the other happenings with the family that brought on the pressure.

Thanks for a wonderful NaBloPoMo experience! Thank you, Dear Readers, for reading my contributions.

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I arrived at the hospital today as some family members were about to leave for lunch. Auntie J is still having a hard time eating and didn’t want to go with them. She came down the hallway before the others left, walking with someone, and they went to the garden.

I stayed and waited for her while she had a talk with that someone who ended up being one of the interfaith chaplains at the hospital.

The Chaplain had been upstairs when he felt the urge to go downstairs to the main floor. At about the same time, two nurses were helping my sobbing aunt to the Chapel/Meditation room. He knew, upon seeing her, he needed to be there for her.

I met Rev. Jacob when they finished their talk and prayer, and he had such a sunny smile and peaceful way about him. He is young, but had experienced so much, including losing his mother at 20. He was able to provide a way for my aunt to express the pain she felt, and he gave her peace and compassion. He even came back to bring information about crying (as Auntie was trying not to cry) and how it helps with healing and also a handmade rosary (which was the last one the chapel had). He is going to give my Uncle an anointment for the sick, as well as blessings.

I am grateful for Rev. Jacob for his gift of compassion and peace to my Auntie J. I believe he is truly an Earth Angel sent to comfort others.

Disclaimer: Image courtesy of prokerala.com.

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Prompt: Thursday, January 30, 2014
If you could persuade people to do one thing right now, what would it be?

I would persuade them to be kind. Every little act of kindness adds up, and brings peace to the world.

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I am on Day 2 of The 21 Day Consciousness Cleanse by Debbie Ford. I started this exercise to try to release other barriers and resistance I am holding on to, including breaking the fear to love. I am hoping this will clear any remaining issues I have, because I want my heart open, stay open, and it would be awesome to meet my Imzadi. 🙂

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Prompt: Wednesday, January 29, 2014
Are you good at influencing other people?

Maybe. I think I can relate to many different people because of my various interests and inquisitive nature. I am always learning and growing. Sometimes I share my lessons and experiences, and maybe others relate to them and find them useful.

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Interestingly enough, after I wrote my NaBloPoMo post for today, Stressor, sharing my fear to love, I found Oprah’s Spirituality 101 show on demand and Oprah explained that spirituality to her is… “a calling on your life. It means you live your life without fear and you know that no matter what happens, no matter what happens, you are going to be alright. You are going to be alright.”

What a nice thing to hear after what I shared. It was a great reminder to me, just like the message (“It is safe for you to love”) on the image above from Doreen Virtue’s The Romance Angels Oracle Cards or when I hear the song, “Brave,” by Sara Bareilles, or the story of Monica George, or the other reminders I encounter on a daily basis to open my heart or be courageous.

I am grateful for these reminders.

Links:
Oprah’s Spirituality 101
Monica George – Mom Warrior

Related posts:
NaBloPoMo 1/28/14 – Stressor
Day 61/365: Now
Day 42/365: Open Heart Lesson
Day 41/365: Free Floating, Patched Up Heart
Day 39/365: Hope
Day 30/375: When In Doubt, Follow Your Heart

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Prompt: Tuesday, January 28, 2014
Which of your responsibilities stress you out the most?

Familial responsibilities have a way of getting to me, especially during trying times. Although I can remain pretty calm even when things are really bad, it is when the others are having a hard time that can really get to me.

Yesterday morning, when Auntie J received the news that her husband had a cardiac arrest (although revived), she let out a soulful wail and broke down. Auntie would joke that she and I are similar and I should have been her kid.

Hearing her yesterday morning, I think I may do the same, faced with similar scenarios. I am working on having a truly, unwaveringly open heart, but I am really scared.

I know I am the type to love with all of me; hence, the reason why I fear to love and have never been in love. I fear that loving fully this way may break me. It has been a daily process for me to work on releasing this fear because I do want to be with my Imzadi and have my little family one day.

I can deal with anything that comes my way. I know I am strong and capable, but anything to do with family is what stresses me out the most, because it is a very important part of my life.

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I am grateful for the gift of prayer. I am thankful for the gift of comfort and inner peace prayer gives to me, especially during such trying times for the family.

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Prompt: Monday, January 27, 2014
What puts more pressure on you: Time constraints or achieving perfection?

Achieving perfection, definitely. This was more pronounced when I was younger, but I have been learning acceptance over the years, because I now believe that my idea of perfection is skewed. I also now believe that the real competition is really with myself, not really with others, and this is mostly for self-betterment… to be a better person, woman, human being, etc.

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